Two Trees in the Wind
“…Do not be afraid or discouraged... For the battle is not yours, but God’s.”
2 Chronicles 20:15 NIV
The doors to the infusion room swung open. The nurse called several names including mine. “Here’s your schedule. You go to the far right,” she said nodding, her head in the direction of the back wall.
I took a chair that faced the windows so I could look outside. I thought it would be a soothing view since it was a rainy, windy day. I watched the cars travel down the street. People were driving around looking for a parking space at the hospital. I got as comfortable as I could in the recliner. The nurse explained how the cancer treatment would be administered. “First, we do pre-meds to prepare the body, and then we start administering the treatment. I will tell you when your treatment starts,” she said.
An older lady sat in the chair across from me. I could tell she had been there before because she was pointing out the different veins to use for her infusion. The nurse turned to me and said, “Your treatment has arrived from the pharmacy.”
“Is that it?” I asked, looking at the bag in her hand. “Yes,” she responded. As she hung it on the IV pole, she said, “You will start feeling it entering your system soon.” I watched the medication slowly drop into the tube making its way into my vein.
Tears started falling from my eyes. The older lady and her daughter turned their heads as I started to cry. I apologized to everyone around me for the tears. I told myself I wasn’t going to cry.
“Your first treatment is the hardest and longest. No need to apologize for crying,” the nurse said. I prayed, Jesus where are you? I know medically there’s no cure, but you can do all things-I need to know You are here.” I clutched mom’s cross necklace that I have worn every day since she passed. Jesus, I need You and I wish my parents were here.
Suddenly I felt at peace. I heard Him say, “I am with you. Look out the window.” I saw two trees swaying in the wind like they were waving. It was like they were cheering me on in the fight. I knew this day would come. I had been in watch-and-wait mode for six years.
imagined the treatment bag as little soldiers knocking out cancer cells one by one. I settled into the chair and closed my eyes to let God and the soldiers take control. I felt Heaven cheering me on as the wind picked up and all the trees began to sway. The rain came as if, it was giving me permission to shed a few tears. Jesus was there holding my hand and I could rest in His comfort.
Mitzie Avera
